pls follow me there too.

I'm missing it here, though.

I always feel like there is something wrong with me. I tried my best to acquire wisdom, to decide whether or not I shall continue on doing this, but every time I do, I always get the most painful path. I don't know what it is that I shall do anymore. It is a burden that is why I want to let go of it already, but since I get the opposite response from Him, then does it mean I shall not?

I wish I could get out from this.

I won't rant about what happened, I just want to write what I am feeling.

I feel scared, scared that you might turn your back at me. I`m scared that I might not be able to forget you. I really really want to forget you already but it's just too hard right now. I want to know what you're thinking. I want to know if there's a chance. I want to stop thinking. I want to hide. I want to drink something that would erase my memory. I wish someone would erase my memory. I'm looking forward to an accident that would definitely erase my memories. I don't wanna remember anything about it and about you.

I might not be able to talk to you or look at you when we meet again and I'm doing it for myself, so I can forget you. It`s disturbing me. The thought of you is distracting me and driving me insane. I can't afford to lose my sanity away. That's why I'm doing the most painful end, to make me learn.

I'm lost for words.

I betrayed myself while my friends were asking me about a certain thing. I blurted out the most truthful lie.

Though it`s a tragedy, it`s still funny. HA. HA. Shame on me.

I subconsciously mentioned someone`s name while answering their personal and curious questions. Damn it!

This was the first morning that I woke up and reminded myself to forget him. But then again, I was subconsciously blurting out his name out of nowhere. That`s just stupid... HAHA... and funny.