I'll be posting pictures from my successful birthday-"kuno". YES! I celebrated my second birthday for the year last July 23. I don't know why I love birthdays, cakes and candles. *lmao*Yeah, I'm such a LOSER for not having a cake and candles on my real birth date.

Labels: deathnote, dream

"Do you know that you are so cute?"
"You are so weak and soft that I want to be strong and hard for you."
"My heart is in your hands."

HAAAY. I'm listing some phrases that could hint me about the happenings in How To Produce A Prince. Yeah! I'm so back with it. I'm done with that LOVING-DARKNESS BURDEN thingy so I must concentrate with HTPAP. *lol* I'm updating it now, I guess.

HMM. I created an account in blogskins.com! LINK <---click that to view my profile there. I created two skins for today!

This is the first skin that I submitted! And I admit that the bg didn't suit everything. =(( IDK. I may be too bg-centered that time. I'm too fascinated with the girls face. HAHAHA. Anyhow, at least I manage the codes. The codes were clean btw. I think I'll try a new image for the background. Wait and see. *lol*

This is the second. There were no borders because I don't wanna overdo it. I love the banner but someone said that the colors don't harmonize, I thought so. *lol* However, I still lurve the outcome of this layout. =D

HAHA. I hope I can do better next time. And I hope I can do friendster layouts again. I'm missing the friendster boxes and all those friendster stuffs. *hehe*

*DEATH NOTE. ---lol, I'll do everything just to insert this latest craze of me. HAHA*

I really need to update HTPAP today. *huhu* But I want to blog first. *hehe*

While watching Deathnote, I thought: "He's too intelligent to fall in love." or "He's too intelligent to feel love." *lol* That's about Kira. Wala lang. I realized something. ^__^

PS: If you like the layouts that I made, just check blogskin. Please leave a comment too. Thanks!

Labels: blogskin, deathnote, how to produce a prince, L, lovelife, story, teentalk

We have no class on Thursday and Friday, so I decided to watch some animes and movies. So far, I have watched Deathnote 1, Deathnote 2, Prince of Tennis, Deathnote-anime, and Hunter X Hunter. At this moment, I've been addicted to Deathnote - a lot. *omg, i lurve L*

To satisfy my LOVE for making lists, I'll list the MALE ANIME characters who have the same attitude/habits as me:

I guess there are still a lot of male characters with the same habits as me. But for now, I just know this four.

MADA MADA DANE.

Labels: anime, deathnote, hunter x hunter, L, prince of tennis

This past few days ang dami kong pinagnanasaang materyal na bagay. Nababagot na siguro ako sa buhay ko. Ay, di lang pala materyal, may mga di materyal din pala. Ewan ko bah. I think I need a big change.

1. PSP
` haaai. I want to play and play and play. I'm getting bored na kasi. I want this so much right now!
2. SLR Camera
` there's endusulfan on my brain. *haha* ewan ko na lang kung bakit at para saan ko gagamitin ang mga bagay bagay na ito.
3. Move to a new school
` part na eto ng role identity confusion na pinagdadaanan ko.
4. CAR
` eto talagang mukhang nangangarap na ako ng gising. haha
5. NEW HOUSE
` isa pa to. *lmao* Inaanay na kasi ang bahay namin. HAHAHA. *lol* *joke*

Ewan ko ba. Nasobraan na ata ako sa pagbabasa ng The Alchemist at ngayon mga anime naman ang tinitira ko.

Labels: deathnote, Japan, photography, School

Welcome baby Cris Loraine! YEY! I'm so excited to post her pics. Crislyn is so amazing! HAHA. She gave birth to a healthy baby. I'm sure Cris Loraine will be a beautiful girl.

And I'm gonna be a god mother!!!!! YIPEE. hahaha. *wipes her tears*



When we went to the hospital, I'm surprised that Crislyn haven't seen her baby yet. And since, she still can't walk, she needed to stay on bed until she is discharged. Thank God it was a normal delivery. We thought she's gonna end up CS~no way.

I feel relieved.



This is just a photo manipulation. I'm so sorry for the bad picture. HUHU. I still don't have a pro camera. I want to portray Alice In Wonderland's hair, though IDK if that's the color of her hair. HAHAHA.

So, let's welcome my new LEARNING. *lol* I totally suck at editing pictures plus the camera sucks too. WAAAA~. I just wanna share the colors! haha.

Labels: adobe photoshop, birthday, deviant art, friends, photography

It has been three weeks since the day I told my mother that I have had a difficulty in focusing my mind and heart in my course. Since then, I never thought that I will take up Education as my course in college because I have no interest in teaching and even talking in front. My interest has always been about arts, photography, writing, and all other things that will help me express my feelings. There is no course here in our city that offers those kinds of stuffs. And even after my graduation in High School I never thought of any course than those courses that can offer my desires. Soon after my graduation, I realized that there is no College that offers that here and I, myself, knew that I am not ready to be independent or study far from home. My parents also didn't mind about sending me into far schools because they CAN'T trust my age and mental stability. *lol*. With those things plus my innocence or simple mind, I needed to take the decision of my parents. I needed to pursue a course that doesn't really interest me, simply because I still have little understanding about EVERYTHING.

I never thought that I will get into this part. I feel like I'm a dragonfly trooping with butterflies. Everybody's mind is working (while mine doesn't work), and I'm working too. But I can still feel the feeling of being somewhere that I don't want to belong.

It has been one year since I took up this course, but I still can't find my heart inside it. Maybe, it's still so deep. Or maybe, my heart is simply NOT HERE.

Sometimes, I dream of myself doing what I want and it takes me eternity to dream about it because I don't want to open my eyes anymore and see what's real.

I love what I'm doing. Just as how I need to go to school and educate my self. I need to do it for my own future. I need to do it as a mature person. But I guess now, I'm more than ready to face independence and I am more responsible to take the path that I WANT. Too bad, my parent's close minds are more superior to my happiness.

Even before, I really don't want to fail in any thing that is why sometimes I settle for the mediocre. I don't want to gamble and take risks. But now, I've grown. I am more responsible and I am ready to fail just to test my heart and my abilities.

I have never tested my abilities even before. EVERYTHING THAT EVERYONE SEES RIGHT NOW IN ME IS JUST MEDIOCRE, because I'm still inside my closet—my shell. And even I don't know what's inside that shell. And because of my self-unawareness there rises the power of my curiosity. I do not intend to let others think about me, I just want myself. I want myself back—or want the self that I have been longing for since the day I got my conscience. I don’t want to think about other people, I just want to think about my self, this time.

My parents don’t agree with me. And maybe, they don’t trust me and my abilities. I don’t totally trust my abilities, but I trust my interest and the motivation that my spirit, soul and heart is giving me.

And because of these things, I DO NOT HAVE ANY FINANCIAL SUPPORT right now. *lol*. I have my weekly allowance from them, but I do not have any extras and pocket money which means that I’ll be ending my week with -500php savings. I’m running out of money and as time goes by I am becoming poorer. I do not want to plead for pocket money because I want them to see my enthusiasm. But I’m running out of savings. (Actually, I have no savings at this moment. It’s all burned and gone with the wind. *lol*) and continuing this no-pocket-money will make me poorer than ever.

For my self.

Labels: family, money, problem, School

Idols? Yeah, recently I find myself idolizing some significant people! I don't know why this past few days I find some people very magnificent. *lol*
PS: I'm envious with a thing and an occasion. So I'm gonna do it with my friends or with my self. HAHA. I feel like I'm so desperate doing that.

Labels: bob ong, deviant art, dream, friends, model, photography, School

Ano ba naman to! Muntik na akong malaglag sa upuan sa mga nakita at nabasa ko. *lol* tsk. I don't know the reason behind the things that I have read and the things that I saw.

But anyway, I'm here again typing in my keyboard. *sniffs* I remembered Isay asking me about my archives. GAHD. Just as I thought, this layout is UNFRIENDLY. *lol* hehe. But I like it *sobs*. haha.

So, like I will have my prelim tomorrow in my major subject and I'm here again, surfing and typing and listening to URBANDUB's Guillotine. I don't know why I love blogging when my sched is really hectic. Maybe that is why I have my notebook. Or maybe because, kanina while I was going to school, saw a pig. Yes! The one who can "oink-oink"! I think the PIG [idk if that is a male or a female pig, whatever], is already dead this time! For sure pinagpi-piyestahan na yun ngayon. I saw it well tied and CRYING. *omg, sobs* The pig is so kawawa. Wala lang, I just thought that pigs....pigs.... yeah.... delicious.... *lol*.... but if you have seen the PIG that I saw kanina while going to school, then you'll understand why I'm like this right now. HAHA.


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Kaya nga eh. Na late ako kanina sa first period. OMG. Baka ma AF na ako neto dahil sa dami ng late. I reflected on that pig so much that made me like a DEAD WORM habang naglalakad patungong STC 307.

PS: DEAD WORM. (credits to my brother) He called me Patay na Ulod. Or Dead WORM.

PPS: Uod na nga... tapos Patay pah! WTH? Then what kind of a slow poke am I? haha. xD

PPPS: My mother scolded me for staying in front of the computer TOO LATE now. Yeah, may pasok na kasi. And so, I need to be out. I was about to post some of my pix pa naman sana [for unreasonable purposes---I just wanna be vain at this moment. kaso...tsk]. Next time na lang. *lol*

Labels: blockmates, family, friends, Friendster, music, School