...that, uh, i need to blog about. No, not that really important. Then I realized that next week or tomorrow is our damn finals. I haven't read anything in my book yet, nor scanned. IDK why I have this stup1d habit. I haven't updated DC yet too because of our requirements. And I haven't finished any of those requirements either.

I've been too busy going out with my friends. Since pipay and tintin are off to New Zealand this Wednesday, we need to spend more time with each other and go out more often - and thats what we've been doing since last week.

Today, I woke up quite late because I did my requirements in the morning already. I woke up with a verrrry happy disposition because of some beliefs about what's gonna happen today. I really don't believe that its gonna happen, though. It seemed impossible. Last new year or, errr, can't remember anymore, was that the chinese new year or the jan.1? IDK, basta. We had "hula-hula" then it turned out that this day is on the "hula-hula" (we used the normal baraha/cards), that this day (according to the cards) will unfold a phenomena for my lovelife. LOLOL. I'm not in the proper state of mind already. errrrm, so i decided to think that if i'll see my "object of affection" today, then maybe we have something for each other. HAHAHA LOL. It seemed impossible because it's Sunday and we only see each other at weekdays. We went to school to attend mass then to Ketkai. I was not really hoping that I'll see him because it'll be too hard for me if I didn't - and I expected that I won't. But... i saw him. I was like "pooootang ina... paano nangyari to?"

Labels: lovelife, School, story

Now, now, now. I`ve been to busy to update this blog. And know what? I`ve been so damn unwell recently. After two successful months of being carefree-single-teenage-girl-and-not-inlove-with-anybody, I am now [again] feeling LONELINESS.

btw, i'm so annoyed because I'm not that free in our house because there are lots of people and i hate them all.

According to Karla's Philosophy Teacher [who is a witch-like-teacher], long long time ago human beings are composed of two persons. It's like they are tied somewhere in the waist or something. Human beings are composed of two persons [a boy & a girl], but more often than not some are composed of a boy & a boy or a girl and a girl. So there are two bodies each human beings and four hands, two head etc. (did you get the point?) Okay, so one day they committed a sin. No, not really a sin but somehow they broke a rule that the Gods didn't like. As to what sin or rule it is, I forgot. GOD DAMN, what an absolute waste of momentum. I`ll just ask Karla next time. Anyway, where are we...so...uh yeah, they broke a rule that is why human beings are punished. The Gods make every human beings (that are two persons) TWO. The Gods cut the tie between those two individuals and throw each far from one another. They separated the other half, whether its a boy&girl or girl&girl or boy&boy (which is why there are homosexuals or something like that). So right now, we are all incomplete because our other half is not with us. We are all here to find them but it does not mean that those other half are the people that we are going to marry BUT they are just a mere part of us that we need to find just because we are LONELY and they fill the missing part in us.


I hope you get the story. I don't really write that well in English. So, based from above. That explains my being unwell and lonely right now. PLUS, I found a new object of affection again. I LIKE HIM. But, I'm afraid that he is already taken or maybe I don't want to believe on my LYING HEART. Okay, forgive my heart forgive my self. I believe in what I'm feeling but then I just want to make sure that I am not overdoing things like this. I really want to believe my heart - that it's not telling me lies. However, my heart is a bit foolish.

I wish I was not this prideful (LOL). Shame on me. Because I can see my friends falling for some people and I understand them but I think I'm incapable of loving because I really dig into the flaws and then later on I'll just make that someone an object for LAUGHTRIP. LOL. Or maybe, that's it. I am not incapable of loving but I haven't been inlove yet or I haven't been inlove since the last time I`ve been. HAHAHAHA~!

Even if I resemble a robot, I still do have feelings anyway.

So, let's talk about that new object of affection. BTW, VNECK is just infatuation that I almost rip myself because it's a biiiiiiiig and severe social blunder. HECK, and now he wants to steal my heart or maybe bring out that infatuation again. HAHAHA~! Sorry, I'm done with it. What a stupid and lame infatuation. Anyway, I've done it a lot of times already that's why right now, I'm being careful and I need to identify if is this feeling is real or another illusion.


hahahaha~! Someone introduced me to him and I'm sad because he didn't recognize me after that. However, we were introduced again so I think I caught his attention. Mind you, I didn't plan those things ah? Even if I'm such a play maker, but this time it was all a mere coincidence. That is one of the weird things (or should I say its different because I didn't make the play compared to all my other object of affections). And when we see each other at school, I can't look at him straight in the eyes because I'm too stunned. HAHAHA~! And he who doesn't even know I exist before, gives me a second look now. Mind you, I never even noticed him before that someone introduced us to each other. I began crushing on him right after we were introduced so... that's how it went.

However, I'm jotting it here because I can't talk to anyone right now because they are all asleep and I can't talk to my friends when I'm at school either because as much as I doubt that I like him enough, they too doubt that it'll last.

DUH~! I am not really wishing that it will last (OMFG, why are we talking about a lasting feeling, soooo gay) because I don't think we will be friends. However, I still hope and OMG I have aaaaaaaaaaalll the fighting spirit in the world so after this post, I'll believe in my deepest hell-heart that we will be friends and FRIENDS... HAHAHAHA~! What a lame looser.

so, that belief will start NOWWWWWWWWWWW.

PS: I'm now believing that we will be great friends soon!
HAHAHAHA

Labels: fiancee, lovelife, philosophy

Labels: family, lovelife, School, thoughts

YOU'VE READ IT RIGHT! I A`d Maebelle's Phenomenology. YAY for me. I made him one because I'm bored. haha. Phenomenology is necessary on Philo15, I guess. But I don't have it though I have Philo15. Maybe it depends on my teacher.


*I'm not feeling good. My heart is hurting right now. I saw some thing on friendster. GAAAH. I feel guilty and I am blaming my self for being MEAN to someone's feelings. Huli na ang lahat? (i guess).*

And so now, I wanna blog about things in school, but since I've been distracted by a stupid----ay ang galing talaga. I'm super distracted with my LITTLE FINDINGS (it counts on me a lot, stupid).

*Sigh*

I guess I'll just post my new friendster layout.


The credits are on my friendster, I need to hurry because I'm seriously UNWELL right now. AND I THANK HIM FOR THAT.


PS: I HATE text-lingos, especially if it's on the internet or school. (okay lang kung sa phone, wtf?)
PPS: Uminit ang ulo ko. ='( so bad!

Labels: Friendster, friendster layout, lovelife, School

"Do you know that you are so cute?"
"You are so weak and soft that I want to be strong and hard for you."
"My heart is in your hands."

HAAAY. I'm listing some phrases that could hint me about the happenings in How To Produce A Prince. Yeah! I'm so back with it. I'm done with that LOVING-DARKNESS BURDEN thingy so I must concentrate with HTPAP. *lol* I'm updating it now, I guess.

HMM. I created an account in blogskins.com! LINK <---click that to view my profile there. I created two skins for today!

This is the first skin that I submitted! And I admit that the bg didn't suit everything. =(( IDK. I may be too bg-centered that time. I'm too fascinated with the girls face. HAHAHA. Anyhow, at least I manage the codes. The codes were clean btw. I think I'll try a new image for the background. Wait and see. *lol*

This is the second. There were no borders because I don't wanna overdo it. I love the banner but someone said that the colors don't harmonize, I thought so. *lol* However, I still lurve the outcome of this layout. =D

HAHA. I hope I can do better next time. And I hope I can do friendster layouts again. I'm missing the friendster boxes and all those friendster stuffs. *hehe*

*DEATH NOTE. ---lol, I'll do everything just to insert this latest craze of me. HAHA*

I really need to update HTPAP today. *huhu* But I want to blog first. *hehe*

While watching Deathnote, I thought: "He's too intelligent to fall in love." or "He's too intelligent to feel love." *lol* That's about Kira. Wala lang. I realized something. ^__^

PS: If you like the layouts that I made, just check blogskin. Please leave a comment too. Thanks!

Labels: blogskin, deathnote, how to produce a prince, L, lovelife, story, teentalk

FIVE things that I should blog about. HAAAAH! I've been very lazy this past few days. Nuh-uh. I'm also very busy. Today, we have no class for some reasons that `idk.

Yesterday night, we (Kisha, Otep, Tawi and I) were on XU for the launching of XU @ 75. And we watched the fireworks. T'was nice though.

1. LOVING DARKNESS.
`is already finished. ZOMG. Finally, the story that I've been dying to write is already done. Good job. Congratulations to myself.


2. Danica & Kulot.
`turned 18 last June 14 & June 25. Waaah. Good for them. They're effin' legal already. =P I still don't wanna be OLD. LOL. haha.

3. Tawi.
`turned 18 yesterday. This guy doesn't deserve his age. HAHA~!. LOL.





4. School.
`is sooo back. And I'm back in hell again. REPORTS, QUIZZES, and effin headaches are so back And it's not a good thing for a paranoid and confused 17-year-old girl like me. I'm still unstable with the path I'm taking and still very young to decide for my future. But I don't wanna end up regretful. And since I'm enjoying at school and I'm learning, I guess everything is just fine. Right?


5. VNECK.
`is hell invading my heart? I'm not sure though. I'm actually not hiding feelings from him. It's just that I'm really confused and I also want him at the same time. LOL. I'm really unpredictable. I don't even know what I want to do with this thing here. HAHA. Yes, I like him. But I'm afraid that I can be too demanding at times and `idk. HAHA. Lets just not talk about LOVE. haha

Labels: friends, lovelife, School, story