Saturday, August 22, 2009
the hottest love has the coldest end
@9:53 AM
There is no use of keeping destructive and depressing thoughts to myself. But since, there`s a lot of it lately (or since yesterday or the other day) I might not spill them all out.
I won't rant about what happened, I just want to write what I am feeling.
I feel scared, scared that you might turn your back at me. I`m scared that I might not be able to forget you. I really really want to forget you already but it's just too hard right now. I want to know what you're thinking. I want to know if there's a chance. I want to stop thinking. I want to hide. I want to drink something that would erase my memory. I wish someone would erase my memory. I'm looking forward to an accident that would definitely erase my memories. I don't wanna remember anything about it and about you.
I might not be able to talk to you or look at you when we meet again and I'm doing it for myself, so I can forget you. It`s disturbing me. The thought of you is distracting me and driving me insane. I can't afford to lose my sanity away. That's why I'm doing the most painful end, to make me learn.
I'm lost for words.
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