And I'd like to think that all the pain in the world is because of Him trying to teach me something essential. I just hope I can understand the confusing parts.

Sometimes, no, maybe most of the time, I felt like everyone has their own properties in the world. Properties that could somehow, it seems to me, complete them. Of course, this might not be true. This is just how I feel about today. The delusion that I felt today is undecipherable. It didn't happen before, and I'd like to believe that it would not, ever, happen again.

Today is a perfect source of an entry. It's not just because something happened or the words are flowing on my mind or the ideas I have are too constructive. As you might obviously see, I am pretty much in a hanging state. This is a perfect source of an entry because today was bitter.

I wish I can just cry until total exhaustion tonight.