I remembered our discussion on St. Agustine's philosophy of man in the Doctrine of Love. It's about disordered love.

As what I have learned in our class, disordered love is when you love something/someone more than it's capacity to love. I think it makes sense. Then, somehow if you are a person in love with another person - it is expected that you will expect something (LOVE) in return from the person you love. But, is love really enough? I mean, if someone you love tells you "I love you." does it satisfy you? Or you still want more of it? And then if the one you love doesn't love you back like the way you love them, you will feel pain and discontentment. Therefore, it is disordered.

As a human person, we are incomplete. And as we live in this world, we seek for something or someone who can make us complete, but then we end up hurting someone or ourselves.

We don't know that our incompleteness can only be satisfied by God and only God.


`chaaaar. wth am I talking about? My mind is too disordered right now because of some bothersome things.
`NOOOO! It's nothing about lovelife, I have no current love interest because I don't know if I the things that I really want, YESTERDAY.

Because today, I think I already know what is it that I want. *lol* I'm gonna study hard because I want to be successful and I want to EXPLORE THE WORLD. EXPLORE THE WORLD - that's what I want. I'm an amateur writer of LOVE STORIES (and some fantasies too), that will make me feel like I am living multiple lives. *sniffs* That's the only thing that can be made as my desire because that's the only thing that I can think of (that is proven). I mean, I AM A MULTI-TALENTED person who lacks MOTIVATION. And it sucks. *hahaha, am I bragging or what?* So, because I have MULTIPLE likes, I need to try them all and JUST DO WHAT I WANT TO DO.

My studies: for my parents (and myself, unconsciously)


PS: I've been to a recollection that's why I have all of these in mind.
PPS: I'm thinking too fast that is why there were many subjects and my topics are very constructive. *lol*
PPPS: I have poor order of thoughts and syntax because my mind can really think very fast that I failed to acknowledge everything on my thoughts, though I type fast.

They say that the cure of confusion and all the unexplainable things on the mind (like what I have now) is LOVE. (romantic) NAAAH~!